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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
4:12 PM

went to meet lao lao for lunch with zhen yesterday... as i have expected, yesterday was a time for lecturing... no matter what topic we were talking, lao lao can turn a big round to shoot me... wah... i'm impressed with his organisation of thoughts and speech, which i'm never capable of for now... hmmm... i really like an immature in front of him, always speaking nonsense and shamelessly admitted that i didn't read... ahshiii... tsk...

我一向都不是个积极的人，无论做什么事，都是抱着能过关就好的念头。。。我不是没能力，只是不想那么用心。。。原因并非因为那件事情不值得我去用心，而是我害怕用尽全力都无法成功的失落感。。。如果没尽力，至少我失败的原因是没尽力，不是没能力。。。真是缩头乌龟。。。一向把自己的惰性冠上美丽的名称叫随性，什么事都别太强求，顺其自然就好。。。但是，顺其自然不是这样用的。。。应该是尽了全力，最后没能如愿以偿，只好不要太执著，顺其自然。。。想必我这个缩头乌龟还无法完全了解这道理，不然我也不会是现在这个样子。。。

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